Weight: 17st 11lb
Really quite delighted with this week's progress. Can't deny that I've indulged in the bread (normally a very dangerous choice for me) and even cracked so far as to thoroughly enjoy a couple of cream eggs (well, when they're gone, they're gone!).
So I'm very happy to have lost another couple of pounds this week. I was holding my breath and crossing my fingers when I stood on the scales, just hoping I'd held onto my achievement from last week and it would still register as 17-13. Nearly jumped for joy when it told me I'd actually lost!
It's been rough at work lately, so I can only presume the stress is having an impact. I know this is supposed to be a bad thing but I'll take the silver lining where I can. Me and the Lovely Husband are also struggling a bit, though not with each other.
I'm nearly 28 now (which feels very close to 30) and I can't help starting to worry about kids. We both want them but I'm starting to get twitchy about a more imminent plan. Unfortunately this mostly relies on the Lovely Husband getting a better job to be anywhere near able to afford The Next Stage.
One of the things I'm struggling with, however, is the Lovely Husband's approach. Because he knows there's nothing to be done right now, he keeps avoiding serious conversations about the issue. Even when talking about a new job he just talks about new cars and holidays. It's started to occur to me that maybe he's not quite as on-board with the idea. I can't tell if he's just not dealing with it because it's a non-issue right now or because he's not as keen. I know if I talk to him he'll tell me what I want to hear. So, for now, we aren't having the Proper Talk. And it's bothering me.
Instead, I'll stick to the weight loss. This is an issue I can do something about. Something I can have some control over. And, when The Next Phase does become an option, I'll be in better shape to deal with it.
Enough of the serious reflections I think. Clearly 'Call the Midwife'is a bad influence. Next week we return to our normal schedule and, hopefully, the more whimsical tone.
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